I went to CBT therapy yesterday 15 months on and still struggling but getting on with it. For those who are interested its one to one therapy where you talk about what happenned and how to cope daily. I never thought that every day I would have flash backs but I do ! how long will they last who knows? But I can saye great coping mecanisms and they work for me and I am glad I have had the opportunity through PRAMS to access this treatment . My work mates have been great and understanding by me going off to hospital every week and I am grateful to them. So, if you have been offered this help and are hesitant to take up the offer do it, it helps x
HI Everyone I havent posted for a while . Feeling ok still getting big wobbles though when I go to CBT therapy but managing ok. I finally managed to go for my smear after putting it off 3 times, now the waiting game for the result but hope all will be ok. I am still on meds and wonder will I be forever because without them I think life would be full of anxiety. Amelia is forever growing and a real beautiful little girl x. My mum is ill so this makes my anxiety worse but I am coping and you all can too just take a day at a time x hoping to meet up with other mums too, coping mechanisms helping try them ! x
Just started our facebook page….hoping it helps
Hi everyone I went back to work today. I was feeling very anxious last night and hardly slept with worry. I dont know why as It all went well and I didnt even have a moment as I call them. Everyone was great and there were only a few difficult questions which I dealt with and am quite proud of myself. In respect of leaving Amelia I just treated it like a shopping trip . I did think about her alot but made all the thoughts positive and it was lovely to see her smiling face when I went to pick her up.
So to sum up I promise anyone reading this and doubting returning to work after a tough time of it its ok little steps and you will be surprised its not too bad.
Hi its Sarah feeling a little wobbly now one week to go its like waiting to be put in front of a firing line. Im just worrying about all the questions as there will be as people like to ask the whys and what fors. At last I feel though I will face the questions and be ok even though a bit wobbly. I look at Amelia who is nearly one and wonder how we made it this far but we have and we are here and we have the rest of our lives together. One day in the future I will tell her what I went through but for now its the happiest but in a bitter sweet way a little sad as my baby girl wont be with me all day. x keep strong x
Hi my name is Sarah and my story is on the site under Placenta Praevia. I have 11 days until I return to work after a year and a month off. I can honestly say I have been very very ill but now I am well getting there. I just want to say a big big THANKYOU to everyone who has been there for me and helped me along my journey. That is what I call it now, I will never forget any of you. I will post as often as I can to share experiences with others. Anyone who is reading this you will get better, its just a journeyx love to Bec and Sinead x
I feel some sadness but nothing like what I thought I would feel.
Today I watched my baby girl crawl for the first time ever. I thought about how I felt last year, full of fear and anxiety about what the coming weeks had in store. I knew the placenta previa I had been diagnosed with was serious and felt like a walking time bomb.
Today I had fun, loved playing with my beautiful children and felt relief that I was here, that my children got here safely.
Yes the sadness is still there that I’ll never again bear a child but today I thought about what I do have, not what I haven’t.
Well, although there is still content to add our blog is live! I’m off to my support group in the morning to hopefully collect more ‘material’ to go on here and suggestions and ideas.
and leave comments and suggestions! This is a first for us all so bear with us! Today has been a difficult day as I’ve spent it in hospital with my hubbie who had a stress fracture. I needed to support him but felt anxious and at times tearful being back in a hospital environment. But tomorrow is a new day and I’m hoping that talking to the girls at group about how it made me feel will help. Night night.