I have had a really rough few weeks. The panic and anxiety that has brimmed under the surface all year came to a head and resulted in a panic attack whilst getting ready for work three weeks ago. Sine then I have felt almost paralysed in a state of fear and anxiety. Some days I haven’t even had the energy or strength to get dressed. I am trying to take ‘action’ though. I’ve gone to my drs and gone
back on medication and after an evening of feeling increasingly anxious I have just completed some EFT (emotional freedom technique) following one of Brad Yates, a reputable EFT practitioner, videos on You Tube. I did one for anxiety and had an almost ‘light bulb’ moment. It made me realise that for pretty much the 9 months of my pregnancy I lived in a ‘fearful’ state. My placenta previa diagnosis which got progressively worse made me worry terribly. I had insomnia spending many a sleepless night downstairs on my own in the early hours crying and worrying about my unborn child and my own mortality. Then her birth was the most frightened I have ever been in my life. I thought I had lost her and then underwent another spell in intensive care, a hysterectomy abd huge blood loss. So no wonder I feel like this right now. Its only been two years and I haven’t yet processed all that residual emotion and fear that I have carried with me for so long. So, I will keep on with my EFT and the belief that this will get better.